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"Know my soul, my angel. I'm an evil thing. God wouldn't take me. And the Devil wouldn't either."
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy."
"Creativity is a drug I cannot live without."
"Be open to your dreams, people. Embrace that distant shore. Because our mortal journey is over all too soon."
"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self."
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The One With The Stuff About The Things Sean and I got a vehicle. Finally... finally we don't have to rely on others for transportation. Finally we don't have to wait to eat out when we feel like it. Finally we both can sit in the front seat together. Finally we can go grocery shopping without worrying about what's in the trunk of someone else's car. Finally we can travel to a distant city for entertainment. Finally we can go see my family. Finally! It's a great car... a 2004 Chevrolet Cavalier... the dealer said it was champagne hued, but that was perhaps to make it seem more appealing. I believe it's much more of a sand-dust color. In any case, we were quite excited and wanted to give our new car a name. For the longest time we couldn't agree on a name... but finally settled on Cookie. I had wanted to name it Squishy... kindof an irony thing, as it's not exactly Squishy. If Sean and I were to ever have children, I doubt we'd ever come to a name. Speaking of children, my monthly curse was quite light... so light that I could have used perhaps two tampons for the whole thing. And it ended three days early. It lasted only three days. When taking my Parenting and Child Development course in highschool, I learned that when pregnant you can still have a period. And so this worries me. Could I be pregnant? I doubt it... highly. As I am on the birth control pill. What would happen if I were pregnant? I wouldn't know how to deal with it. I don't want children, especially not this early in my marriage, and in my life. But my Aunt once told me a valuable lesson. Never worry about the 'what ifs'... because it might not be what you think it is, and all your worrying would be for nothing. Still... I cannot help but worry. Pregnancy is not something I want to find out in the second or third month! Yet, I don't want to worry Sean about it. And I don't want to spend money on a test to find out it's false. Those tests are pricey. It's most likely nothing... nothing at all. – Ava "Sometimes we have to be brought to our knees in order to get in touch with who we really are and what we really want. We can't heal until we hit rock bottom."
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