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Navigate The Femme –
"Know my soul, my angel. I'm an evil thing. God wouldn't take me. And the Devil wouldn't either."
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy."
"Creativity is a drug I cannot live without."
"Be open to your dreams, people. Embrace that distant shore. Because our mortal journey is over all too soon."
"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self."
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The One In Which There Is No Passion I wonder why our passion has deteriorated so. I cannot help but feel less desirable to Sean, as I have literally thrown myself at him for two full weeks. I even dyed my hair, thinking that change would perhaps spark some passion. Idle hopes. My hair is now a color called Cinnaberry. I was hoping for a nice brown with just a tint of red to it... auburn. It's a little more of a dark red however. Highly dissapointing, but I will live with it. In a few weeks when I sicken of the color I'll die it a nice rich dark brown(my natural color). Though I'm on the monthly female curse this week(starting today), I am determined to provoke excitement in our relationship however, and a period will not stop me. Yet I am not entirely sure how to begin to spark his passion anymore. And I can see how it would go this morning if I attempt to seduce him. He would walk in the door this morning from work, and I would rush to him, kissing him passionatly upon his sexy lips. He would kiss back, but not so deeply, take off his work uniform, get something to drink, and then go sit down to tv. I would go lay down next to him, fondling his chest, kissing his warm neck. My hand would travel downward, fingers slipping beneath the rim of his boxers, and he would pull my hand away saying in a playful tone,"What are you doing?" Which, though playful, always means,"I'm not in the mood." Perhaps I should do my hair, and put on some lingerie, and put some light makeup on... would that make me more desirable to him? Would that turn him on to recieving pleasure from me. I only want to delight him... I only want to hear him sigh passionatly, running his fingers through my hair, groping me when I make him feel incredibly good... I only want to feel close to him, feel desirable, and loved... I only want to make him explode with sheer lust. I'm determined to make it happen tonight... If there's one thing you should know about me, is I'm quite the stubbron femme. I'm persistant, and I wont back down until I get what I want. However, if Sean truely isn't in the mood, I wont press it. I wouldn't want to force him to do something he doesn't want to do. I found this quiz, to see what zodiac you are sexually, and the results I got were as follows: You're a total pleaser. One sample of your touch, and anyone is hooked. You're so good that you've gotten people off just with your incredible kissing. You're a bit of a romantic, and you only have sex that's meaningful. Cancer, you are a born pleaser. Few people can resist your passionate, playful allure. An incurable romantic, you adore being courted. You'll do anything for a lover that sends you flowers or love tokens. You like lots of cuddling, touching, and kissing. You are a celebrated kisser. You also like to touch and fondle yourself. Typically, you learned to give yourself pleasure at a very young age. As an adult, you are easily aroused and multi-orgasmic. Mutual masturbation is very satisfying for you. You are extremely aware of your sexual attraction. You telegraph your sensuality with every move you make. You have the most communicative body language of any sign. You are very emotional, and you constantly need an emotional outlet. Frequent sex seems to calm you down. But you are old fashioned, and a quickie is not your style. You prefer long, slow seductions, erotic masasages, and lots of oral sex. Sean always told me that I was the best he has ever kissed. And my kissing is a turn-on. And to me, sex is meaningful. I won't have sex unless it's in a monogomous relationship. I'm not aware of my sexual attraction... in fact, I don't think I have any, but I am working on making myself more attractive. But I read all of the signs, and out of all of them, this is the most correct... Cancer(though I am a Gemini). – Ava "Sometimes we have to be brought to our knees in order to get in touch with who we really are and what we really want. We can't heal until we hit rock bottom."
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